January 2020
Existence
Living in a missing piece,
Dream finding the keys
To open up the chest covered in sheets
Along with your presence on my cheeks.
Going back to the old days,
When I could touch your face,
A memory that can't be replaced
And lingers to your warm embrace.
And now I'm standing here alone,
Waiting for you to come home.
But you are lying under the stone.
You might be looking at God's throne.
Feeling empty when you're not with me,
Upon the eyes that cannot see.
Hearing your voice in harmony,
Wish to turn back the time when we're happy.
(by Ezar Co ~ January 11, 2019)
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Dream of Fame
When I was at a young age,
I dreamed of a stage,
Performing with grace
Throughout my days.
Dreaming to be in fame
And knowing my name
Over some things to obtain
And people to entertain.
Crowds's applause to be heard,
Sound like a hummingbird.
A lovely gift to earn
An yet a smile in return.
A great show to feel
As if it is real,
But the lights hardly gleam
And everything is just a dream.
(by Ezar Co ~ January 17, 2020)
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Endanger: The Extension
And now, bunch of bad news is flashing in
To this world, like the end is coming.
How could we able to stop everything
When Exodus could be happening?
Hoping Revelation couldn't happen
When many lives are golden.
How much more we'll be threatened?
As if we're crossing on the thin batten.
What's really happening to this world?
Had we might be no longer safe?
What would be the real look of the world?
Could we still able to escape?
(by Ezar Co ~ January 28, 2020)
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February 2020
The Perfect Lust
Hitting up each other through the phone
And we meet up 'cause we're both alone.
In the parking lot, we go.
Riding a car, safe to bestow.
I keep looking at your young face,
The one I wanted to embrace.
Like a sweet cherry to taste
And makes me float through a vast space.
Upon squeezing my thigh many times,
I taste your lips like a glass of wine.
A night playing with romantic chimes,
Wishing to be with you all the time.
Right then, I'm smiling all the way home.
Stalking you on my smartphone.
Just wanted to know you more,
Maybe I love you forevermore.
Now, I'm thinking of you,
Too obsessed to have you.
I don't know what to do
Just to see you through.
Every time I sleep,
I see you in my dreams
Over the moonbeam
And my heart beats in extreme.
I always recall the day we had
Like I was writing it in a notepad.
I keep waiting for you to start the chat,
Hoping our connection would long-last.
Wanted to see you again,
Like it was a February ten.
I would be happy even if we stay friends,
As long as we meet again and again.
(by Ezar Co ~ February 14, 2020)
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P.S. (Post Scriptum)
Loving you without any reason,
Even you're thirty-five years old.
Spending night with you in all season,
Then take my hand and hold.
Seeing the magic in the air
When we are together.
Just like fireflies everywhere
That made me feel better.
Wish you couldn't forget
The day when we first met,
The time when we get wet,
And my own silhouette.
(by Ezar Co ~ February 18, 2020)
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The Trick
Now your thought has started to contrive,
You're too excited when he arrives.
But all I give was faking smiles,
Making distance like a thousand miles.
Upon seeing you how sweet you were,
Making me jealous for me to hurt.
Even though he was your first,
Why am I feeling the thirst?
Maybe I couldn't give what you want
Yet, I'm trying to give you my worth to want.
But something came for me to haunt
Like a ghost that made me blunt.
I just want to leave and go home,
But I can't speak up 'cause I'm alone.
So I typed everything on my phone
About what I felt last night until dawn.
It's hurting me what I saw that night
How I wish you should do it on me too.
But what's the worth of your invite
If I don't know what to do.
I guess you made me the bait to play,
Even though you caught the fish in a game,
Still, I was too foolish to stay
And choked with my pride and shame.
And now, you're giving me a hint
That I'm not your ideal type,
Throwing at me the pieces of flint,
Telling me, I'm the one you don't like.
Yet I'm acting out the desire you wanted
So you don't feel the pain that I'm feeling now,
Inside the room that has been frosted
Without knowing it's burning somehow.
As I was trembling down
Over the water to drown,
I doubt if I should let you go.
I think you have to know.
Because I'm getting out of place
And had this feeling I was erased.
But I ended up hitting you again,
Even though I was suffering in pain.
(by Ezar Co ~ February 29, 2020)
*happened February 28, 2020
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March 2019
Broken Wing
'Cause no one hears me,
Keeping silence and mystery.
Letting them find me
Over my depression and anxiety.
My dream had failed to come
And all I did was getting tantrums,
Then I started to feel numb,
Hearing echoes of rumbling drums.
I'd never been trusted
As if I was that wicked.
And now I'm getting rusted,
Burning down and afflicted.
Too tired of waiting
When it turns out nothing.
Can't feel the everything
Just like a broken wing.
(by Ezar Co ~ March 9, 2020)
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Idle
I wish I could kiss you.
I wish I could embrace you.
'Cause every time I think of you,
I wanted to lay beside you.
As I always care for you,
Hoping you care for me too.
'Cause I really miss you.
Dis you feel the same way too?
I'm almost getting crazy
For having you desperately,
Then I'm falling over my anxiety,
Over-thinking our lives to be happy.
But how could this be
If you never haunt me.
I'm waiting for you to catch me,
But I'm tired to get fall on thee.
(by Ezar Co ~ March 9, 2020)
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A Sudden Flare
I may appear with a white feather
And once you call me a master,
But I turned out as your danger
And you all stay away further.
I may be a ghost who's been isolated,
But we always meet as if we're united.
All fake people who treat me as a friend,
Wishing these things could be ended.
I may be your worthless puppet,
But I just stay calm and quiet.
I may forgive but never forget,
For some things I couldn't regret.
(by Ezar Co ~ August 27, 2019)
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The Secret Message
To my dearest procreator,
Who couldn't able to soar,
With their pride and honor,
And scorned their children's favor.
The dying dream couldn't endure,
For their hearts might not be pure.
They never see the real nature,
They never see what to be nurtured.
They don't even see the message,
For every turn of our page.
They already started to age,
But our desires still locked on the cage.
We speak up but no one listens.
We move up but nothing happens.
We give up but they keep their silence.
We break out and turn on the sirens.
O procreator, such a coward.
Our lives never move forward,
Crawling towards a graveyard.
Hoping we could save by the lifeguard.
But, children never stop dreaming,
For their lives would be worth living.
Every journey has a great meaning.
Hoping one day, it'll be captivating.
(by Ezar Co ~ August 28, 2019)
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September 2019
Nine Point One
You might be a true family,
Inviting us to the party.
Telling us to wear ruby
Just to be lucky and funny.
Waiting to pick our raffle entry,
As if we could win the stupid trophy.
Tragedy always came like cavalry
And we always feel the anxiety.
Running through thorns,
Coming over the storm.
I guess we should go home,
Thought we had never born.
When will the tables turn?
When they will able to learn?
We have nothing to earn,
But we want something to burn.
(by Ezar Co ~ September 14, 2019)
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Stubborn Hap
Every shout, couldn't able to hear.
Every temper started to feel the fear.
At my heart, daggers were pierced.
Brought all the pain through the years.
Every move I wanted to make,
Always a huge mistake.
Every step I wanted to take,
Often fall down through the lake.
No wonder where I should be placed?
For every thin line I had paced,
I still never see any trace.
Just wanted to have my own place.
Everytime I chase my passion,
Health might be the condition.
Taking risk is my prudent decision.
For every success shall be my resurrection.
(by Ezar Co ~ September 19, 2019)
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At Spot
They never trust me.
They never proud of me.
They never support me.
But I'll show them the true me.
I am their big burden,
But someday I'll be golden.
Bearing the fruit at the garden.
Seeking prey to be eaten.
Every present I have,
Would be never enough.
And I will never stop,
For my star will engulf.
(by Ezar Co ~ September 19, 2019)
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Graduation Day
It was the day of commencement.
Feel through the people's excitement.
Another chapter would be ended,
To our journey that's been amended.
It could have happened once,
But it is our lives' significance.
As we find our own balance,
We started to move in advance.
When the ceremony is over,
Celebration would be at supper.
But the blues came over,
And happiness had been covered.
Never feel the great day,
No adorned gifts to display,
No fun to make us stay,
Just a sky full of gray.
Too much things to depress,
Always been such a mess.
Heartache through my chest,
I just have nothing to express.
(by Ezar Co ~ September 28, 2019)
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October 2019
A Vivid Memory
All in our hearts and minds,
We see the art behind.
Flashbacks and rewinds,
Are the marks that would remind.
Sitting on old sofa and just alone.
Recalling stories with telephone,
Seeing the picture that's been drawn,
Showing colors at this old home.
All the things that we never forget
And nicest friends that we had met,
Were part of our lives and our secrets,
And shall be completed our palette.
Looking to the east and wish you're here,
Familiar voices were began to hear,
Ineffable emotions and flowing tears,
Living the memory in every year.
(by Ezar Co ~ October 3, 2019)
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Liberty
I have no room to be alone,
When everyone calls me on my phone
And waiting for me at our home,
But I wanted to stand on my own.
I'm turning twenty one,
Things must be done.
But, just for once,
Let me free and run.
Why does everyone need me?
For a while, wanted to leave my family.
But I guess, letting my happiness be free,
Making each and everyone happy.
(by Ezar Co ~ October 16, 2019)
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We Are Here
We are just your nobody.
We never give any lucky.
We are just unworthy.
We never be happy.
Please hear us out!
Stop making any doubts!
We'd never fade out.
We can reach the clouds.
Don't look us down,
We are in same town.
Helping each other around,
Even if the world has gone.
(by Ezar Co ~ October 16, 2019)
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December 2019
Endanger
What's happening to this world
When we are no longer safe?
What'll be the look of the world
When crime victims can't escape?
Our country is getting haunted
And filled with ghosts along the way.
Some children were caught and faded,
No space for us to make us stay.
Too much shadows that we afraid of
When darkness has been invaded us.
They sneaking out like a hungry wolf,
Taking their chance but no one sees us.
This place was occupied by the wicked,
A place where we are not much protected.
When will immorality be ended?
Who will fight for the justice that's needed?
(by Ezar Co ~ December 10, 2019)
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No Eld To Bow
No care and respect to serve,
Along the crumbling path ain't to deserve.
Feels the chill through my nerves
And keep spiraling over the curve.
As I always took the blame
And getting deep down with shame.
Suffering from all the pain
And wearing the heavy chain.
Following your order,
A cruel law you offer.
Have nothing to cover
Over myself to hover.
Getting rusty and useless
To this life full of madness,
Where all ran out of success
Just like a game of chess.
(by Ezar Co ~ December 30, 2019)
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