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January 2020


Living in a missing piece,

Dream finding the keys

To open up the chest covered in sheets

Along with your presence on my cheeks.

Going back to the old days,

When I could touch your face,

A memory that can't be replaced

And lingers to your warm embrace.

And now I'm standing here alone,

Waiting for you to come home.

But you are lying under the stone.

You might be looking at God's throne.

Feeling empty when you're not with me,

Upon the eyes that cannot see.

Hearing your voice in harmony,

Wish to turn back the time when we're happy.

(by Ezar Co ~ January 11, 2019)


Dream of Fame

When I was at a young age,

I dreamed of a stage,

Performing with grace

Throughout my days.

Dreaming to be in fame

And knowing my name

Over some things to obtain

And people to entertain.

Crowds's applause to be heard,

Sound like a hummingbird.

A lovely gift to earn

An yet a smile in return.

A great show to feel

As if it is real,

But the lights hardly gleam

And everything is just a dream.

(by Ezar Co ~ January 17, 2020)


Endanger: The Extension

And now, bunch of bad news is flashing in

To this world, like the end is coming.

How could we able to stop everything

When Exodus could be happening?

Hoping Revelation couldn't happen

When many lives are golden.

How much more we'll be threatened?

As if we're crossing on the thin batten.

What's really happening to this world?

Had we might be no longer safe?

What would be the real look of the world?

Could we still able to escape?

(by Ezar Co ~ January 28, 2020)


Dream of Fame
Endanger: The Extension

February 2020

The Perfect Lust

The Perfect Lust

Hitting up each other through the phone

And we meet up 'cause we're both alone.

In the parking lot, we go.

Riding a car, safe to bestow.

I keep looking at your young face,

The one I wanted to embrace.

Like a sweet cherry to taste

And makes me float through a vast space.

Upon squeezing my thigh many times,

I taste your lips like a glass of wine.

A night playing with romantic chimes,

Wishing to be with you all the time.

Right then, I'm smiling all the way home.

Stalking you on my smartphone.

Just wanted to know you more,

Maybe I love you forevermore.

Now, I'm thinking of you,

Too obsessed to have you.

I don't know what to do

Just to see you through.

Every time I sleep,

I see you in my dreams

Over the moonbeam

And my heart beats in extreme.

I always recall the day we had

Like I was writing it in a notepad.

I keep waiting for you to start the chat,

Hoping our connection would long-last.

Wanted to see you again,

Like it was a February ten.

I would be happy even if we stay friends,

As long as we meet again and again.

(by Ezar Co ~ February 14, 2020)


P.S. (Post Scriptum)

Loving you without any reason,

Even you're thirty-five years old.

Spending night with you in all season,

Then take my hand and hold.

Seeing the magic in the air

When we are together.

Just like fireflies everywhere

That made me feel better.

Wish you couldn't forget

The day when we first met,

The time when we get wet,

And my own silhouette.

(by Ezar Co ~ February 18, 2020)


The Trick

Now your thought has started to contrive,

You're too excited when he arrives.

But all I give was faking smiles,

Making distance like a thousand miles.

Upon seeing you how sweet you were,

Making me jealous for me to hurt.

Even though he was your first,

Why am I feeling the thirst?

Maybe I couldn't give what you want

Yet, I'm trying to give you my worth to want.

But something came for me to haunt

Like a ghost that made me blunt.

I just want to leave and go home,

But I can't speak up 'cause I'm alone.

So I typed everything on my phone

About what I felt last night until dawn.

It's hurting me what I saw that night

How I wish you should do it on me too.

But what's the worth of your invite

If I don't know what to do.

I guess you made me the bait to play,

Even though you caught the fish in a game,

Still, I was too foolish to stay

And choked with my pride and shame.

And now, you're giving me a hint

That I'm not your ideal type,

Throwing at me the pieces of flint,

Telling me, I'm the one you don't like.

Yet I'm acting out the desire you wanted

So you don't feel the pain that I'm feeling now,

Inside the room that has been frosted

Without knowing it's burning somehow.

As I was trembling down

Over the water to drown,

I doubt if I should let you go.

I think you have to know.

Because I'm getting out of place

And had this feeling I was erased.

But I ended up hitting you again,

Even though I was suffering in pain.

(by Ezar Co ~ February 29, 2020)

*happened February 28, 2020


P.S. (Post Scriptum)
The Trick
Broken Wing

March 2019

Broken Wing

'Cause no one hears me,

Keeping silence and mystery.

Letting them find me

Over my depression and anxiety.

My dream had failed to come

And all I did was getting tantrums,

Then I started to feel numb,

Hearing echoes of rumbling drums.

I'd never been trusted

As if I was that wicked.

And now I'm getting rusted,

Burning down and afflicted.

Too tired of waiting

When it turns out nothing.

Can't feel the everything

Just like a broken wing.

(by Ezar Co ~ March 9, 2020)



I wish I could kiss you.

I wish I could embrace you.

'Cause every time I think of you,

I wanted to lay beside you.

As I always care for you,

Hoping you care for me too.

'Cause I really miss you.

Dis you feel the same way too?

I'm almost getting crazy

For having you desperately,

Then I'm falling over my anxiety,

Over-thinking our lives to be happy.

But how could this be

If you never haunt me.

I'm waiting for you to catch me,

But I'm tired to get fall on thee.

(by Ezar Co ~ March 9, 2020)


A Sudden Flare

I may appear with a white feather

And once you call me a master,

But I turned out as your danger

And you all stay away further.

I may be a ghost who's been isolated,

But we always meet as if we're united.

All fake people who treat me as a friend,

Wishing these things could be ended.

I may be your worthless puppet,

But I just stay calm and quiet.

I may forgive but never forget,

For some things I couldn't regret.

(by Ezar Co ~ August 27, 2019)


The Secret Message

To my dearest procreator,

Who couldn't able to soar,

With their pride and honor,

And scorned their children's favor.

The dying dream couldn't endure,

For their hearts might not be pure.

They never see the real nature,

They never see what to be nurtured.

They don't even see the message,

For every turn of our page.

They already started to age,

But our desires still locked on the cage.

We speak up but no one listens.

We move up but nothing happens.

We give up but they keep their silence.

We break out and turn on the sirens.

O procreator, such a coward.

Our lives never move forward,

Crawling towards a graveyard.

Hoping we could save by the lifeguard.

But, children never stop dreaming,

For their lives would be worth living.

Every journey has a great meaning.

Hoping one day, it'll be captivating.

(by Ezar Co ~ August 28, 2019)


A Sudden Flare
The Secret Message
Nine Point One

September 2019

Nine Point One

You might be a true family,

Inviting us to the party.

Telling us to wear ruby

Just to be lucky and funny.

Waiting to pick our raffle entry,

As if we could win the stupid trophy.

Tragedy always came like cavalry

And we always feel the anxiety.

Running through thorns,

Coming over the storm.

I guess we should go home,

Thought we had never born.

When will the tables turn?

When they will able to learn?

We have nothing to earn,

But we want something to burn.

(by Ezar Co ~ September 14, 2019)


Stubborn Hap

Every shout, couldn't able to hear.

Every temper started to feel the fear.

At my heart, daggers were pierced.

Brought all the pain through the years.

Every move I wanted to make,

Always a huge mistake.

Every step I wanted to take,

Often fall down through the lake.

No wonder where I should be placed?

For every thin line I had paced,

I still never see any trace.

Just wanted to have my own place.

Everytime I chase my passion,

Health might be the condition.

Taking risk is my prudent decision.

For every success shall be my resurrection.

(by Ezar Co ~ September 19, 2019)


At Spot

They never trust me.

They never proud of me.

They never support me.

But I'll show them the true me.

I am their big burden,

But someday I'll be golden.

Bearing the fruit at the garden.

Seeking prey to be eaten.

Every present I have,

Would be never enough.

And I will never stop,

For my star will engulf.

(by Ezar Co ~ September 19, 2019)


Graduation Day

It was the day of commencement.

Feel through the people's excitement.

Another chapter would be ended,

To our journey that's been amended.

It could have happened once,

But it is our lives' significance.

As we find our own balance,

We started to move in advance.

When the ceremony is over,

Celebration would be at supper.

But the blues came over,

And happiness had been covered.

Never feel the great day,

No adorned gifts to display,

No fun to make us stay,

Just a sky full of gray.

Too much things to depress,

Always been such a mess.

Heartache through my chest,

I just have nothing to express.

(by Ezar Co ~ September 28, 2019)


Stubborn Hap
At Spot
Graduation Day
A Vivid Memory

October 2019

A Vivid Memory

All in our hearts and minds,

We see the art behind.

Flashbacks and rewinds,

Are the marks that would remind.

Sitting on old sofa and just alone.

Recalling stories with telephone,

Seeing the picture that's been drawn,

Showing colors at this old home.

All the things that we never forget

And nicest friends that we had met,

Were part of our lives and our secrets,

And shall be completed our palette.

Looking to the east and wish you're here,

Familiar voices were began to hear,

Ineffable emotions and flowing tears,

Living the memory in every year.

(by Ezar Co ~ October 3, 2019)



I have no room to be alone,

When everyone calls me on my phone

And waiting for me at our home,

But I wanted to stand on my own.

I'm turning twenty one,

Things must be done.

But, just for once,

Let me free and run.

Why does everyone need me?

For a while, wanted to leave my family.

But I guess, letting my happiness be free,

Making each and everyone happy.

(by Ezar Co ~ October 16, 2019)


We Are Here

We are just your nobody.

We never give any lucky.

We are just unworthy.

We never be happy.

Please hear us out!

Stop making any doubts!

We'd never fade out.

We can reach the clouds.

Don't look us down,

We are in same town.

Helping each other around,

Even if the world has gone.

(by Ezar Co ~ October 16, 2019)


We Are Here

December 2019



What's happening to this world

When we are no longer safe?

What'll be the look of the world

When crime victims can't escape?

Our country is getting haunted

And filled with ghosts along the way.

Some children were caught and faded,

No space for us to make us stay.

Too much shadows that we afraid of

When darkness has been invaded us.

They sneaking out like a hungry wolf,

Taking their chance but no one sees us.

This place was occupied by the wicked,

A place where we are not much protected.

When will immorality be ended?

Who will fight for the justice that's needed?

(by Ezar Co ~ December 10, 2019)


No Eld To Bow

No care and respect to serve,

Along the crumbling path ain't to deserve.

Feels the chill through my nerves

And keep spiraling over the curve.

As I always took the blame

And getting deep down with shame.

Suffering from all the pain

And wearing the heavy chain.

Following your order,

A cruel law you offer.

Have nothing to cover

Over myself to hover.

Getting rusty and useless

To this life full of madness,

Where all ran out of success

Just like a game of chess.

(by Ezar Co ~ December 30, 2019)


No Eld To Bow
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